Friday, March 6, 2015

Blessing day: Rowan Adele

Dear Rowan,

March 1st was a special day for you.  It was a day filled with love and joy.  I found you a dress that felt so very you.  Beautiful, timeless and so very sweet.  You wore your signature purple polish on your toesies and a precious bow made by a dear friend in your hair.

You were bathed on Sunday morning with all the love and care of a strong Daddy.  I dressed you and nursed you.  Boston held you at church while you waited to be blessed.  You and sister were showered with kisses and hugs from your adoring brothers.  Daddy stood in a circle with dear friends, and your Papa and Uncles.  You quietly listened as Daddy gave you a beautiful blessing.

Blessed with obedience and the courage to stand up for what is right when challenged.
Blessed to be best friends with your sister.
Blessed to be a force for good in the World along with your siblings.

You were blessed with things that felt so perfectly you.  Even from the womb you've been blessed with a peaceful spirit and I think this will be a great strength to your sister and our family.

 Nana recorded your blessings and discovered that you were both blessed with exactly 19 individual blessings.  A testament of Heavenly Father's perfect love for you and your sister.

We love you, our tender little girl.

Momma and Daddy

Blessing day: Remington Jane

Dear Remi,

March 1st was a special day for you.  It was filled with so much love.  I found the prettiest white dresses for you and sister. Simple yet special.  Classic and dainty. This dress was meant for you.  I spent the days leading up to the blessing deciding between tights or socks, pink or white, maybe grey?  In the end I decide painted toesies were just right.  We got pedicures with Tia Bekie the day before.  I chose a pretty pink polish for you.  I spent most of Saturday running errands.  Things like buying croissants and chicken and all the extras to have a special lunch with family for Sunday afternoon.

Late Saturday evening, just before bed Lindsay came over and made each of you a precious bow to wear.  I ran around the house laying out everyone's clothes and we were ready for the day.
Daddy spent Saturday fasting for inspiration.

Sunday morning Daddy bathed you and talked with you.  We had hymns playing during your bath and although there was chaos all around, Daddy and you were in your own little world.

Your blessing was sweet and just right for you.  Your daddy and uncles and Papa and Daddy's close friends surrounded you as you were blessed with the sweetest things.

Confidence.  A strong spirit.  Hundreds of thousands of blessings waiting for you.  All the things I felt for you as you fought to grow strong in my belly.  You were first to be born  and first to be blessed.

We love you darling girl.

Momma and Daddy

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Dear Boston

Dear Boston,

Two weeks ago we had our baby girls.  They finally arrived!  We were starting to feel a little impatient with all the ups and downs of that pregnancy.  In your words,  "They're coming, they're not coming, they're coming, they're not coming, they're coming..."  That sums up our feelings on the twins arrival pretty well.

This pregnancy was a hard one on all of us.  I was put on modified bed rest at 20 something weeks and then strict bedrest at 30 something.  This was really hard for you boys to have your very active Mom be completely non active.  No more scooping you up, no more running around, no more getting down on my hands and knees and no more putting you down for bed.  This was really sad for all of us.  After the babies arrived there was still some adjusting for all of us to do.  I was barely surviving those first couple days home and on days 3, 4 and 5 I could barely keep from crying all the time.

I tried to not cry in front of you ever, but you are very in tune to how I'm feeling and you would catch tears in my eyes often.  I could tell it scared you to see me sad and sometimes you would start to cry when you'd ask, "Mommy, are you sad?"

I didn't know what to do because I couldn't help that tears were going to literally fall out of my eyes no matter what.  I could keep from sobbing, but I couldn't always keep the tears away completely.  So I told you that often times when Mommy's have a baby they cry for a couple days and they cry for all different reasons.  We talked about crying when we're happy, or touched.  We talked about how I cry sometimes if I feel sad or overwhelmed and we even talked about crying because we're laughing so hard.  I told you it's perfectly normal and it's ok.  It's even ok if Mommy feels sad sometimes, It won't last.

After discussing why we cry, I told you that we can always try to make ourselves feel better.  So we came up with a silly face we could do whenever we're feeling sad, that will make us laugh and help us feel better.  So for those first few days home, whenever those sad unexplained, baby blues feelings would creep up on me, I would stick my tongue out, cross my eyes, look at you and you'd do the same.  Then we would both bust up in genuine laughter.  One of those days you fell when riding your bike and instead of crying you looked at me and did your silly face.  We laughed again.

Week two of babies being home has gotten so much easier.  I can tell you feel safe and normal again and the tears every day have stopped, so we've had less need for the silly face, but tonight, out of the blue you did that silly little face again and it warmed my heart.  I realized that will be one of those bittersweet memories for me.  I'll remember my oldest son and what a trooper he was when his life was getting flipped upside down for months on end.  I'll remember your desire to be happy and joyful as much as possible.  I'll remember our conversations about it being ok to be sad and get a good cry out and I'll remember that we both tried our very best to lift each other's burdens.

I love you Boston.  I appreciate you.  I'm so glad I get to share this adventure with you.



Monday, December 15, 2014

Dear Rowan Adele

Hi Darling,

You have now been in my tummy for 33 whole weeks.  Pretty soon (could be any day) I get to meet you and I cannnot wait.  I've had such a good time getting to know you over these last months.  For the majority of this pregnancy you have been baby A.  This means that unless I have a C section, you will be born first.  From the beginning you've been consistant, growing along peacefully.  I got to hear your heart beat for the first time at just 6 weeks.  It was a strong little heart beat too!  You haven't caused us any worry during this pregnancy, always stable.  You are definitely the calmer one of you and sister.  All of your movements are slow and rolling.  I imagine you to be my peaceful, mellow little one.  :)  Maybe even quiet?  Wouldn't that be a change in our home.  I picture you going about life with a certain amount of grace.  That's a quality I've never had, but have always admired in my friends.  I'm often drawn to women that don't have to be loud to be heard, and that have a sort of quiet, but substantial presence in a room.  Peaceful, content women.  This is how I imagine you might be. :)  Although if I've you pegged wrong, you just feel free to be you.  I'll love you any which way you are!

We just officially chose yours and sisters names a few weeks ago.  Rowen was a name Daddy and I liked for a boy and we considered it when I was pregnant with Isaac.  When deciding a name for you I wanted something graceful, and elegant and was very close to naming you Adele.  Daddy brought up the idea of naming you Rowan and I had never thought of that for a girl.  I looked up the meaning of Rowan online and fell in love with the name even more.  Rowan with an A is the girl form of the name and you're named after the Rowan tree.  A beautiful tree with red berries it has it's roots in greek, norse and british folklore.  The Rowan tree is also called a tree of the Goddess or Faerie tree.  in Norse mythology they say that the first woman was made from the Rowan tree. In Gaelic the name means "little redhead".  Will you have red hair perhaps?  I wonder!

You are such a blessing in my life already.  You are so wanted by both Daddy and I.  I can't wait to meet you, look at you, and hold you....soon!



PS Boston has claimed you as "his" baby.  This means he'll be my big helper when it comes to you.  You're really gonna love him. :)  That also means Remi is Isaac's baby.  Good luck Remi! ;)

Dear Remington Jane

Hi Sweet girl,

I want you to know how much I love you.  When I found out I was pregnant with two of you, it was your heart that we couldn't hear right away.  I didn't know if I would get to keep you or not.  A week or two later we went back to check on you and sister and I waited anxiously to hear your heart beat.  The moment we heard two heart beats I burst into tears.  I had prayed and prayed that Heavenly Father would let me keep you.

I've enjoyed growing you in my tummy even though sometimes it can get really uncomfortable.  I think you must get uncomfortable too because you will stretch your little back out and I think you're just looking for more room to wiggle.  You're my busy little girl, with hard kicks and wiggles, never subtle.  I imagine you'll be a busy little thing with a little fire in ya when you're born too.

I've had your name picked out for almost 5 years now.  I knew when I had a daughter I would use this name for her.  A long time ago I came across blog that had a really beautiful girl named Remington on it and she went by Remi.  She had long brown hair and a classic look and from that moment on Daddy and I both loved the name.  In fact if Boston had been a girl, we would have named him Remington!  :)  When I felt inspired that it was time for Isaac to get here the thought that came to my mind was, "It's time to get Remi here".  It turns out it wasn't quite your turn just yet.  And now after all these years, and many months I get to meet you!  I'm so excited.  I already feel like I know you well.  You're a busy little thing, you're a fighter and already you have a head full of hair! :)  You're not getting all the nutrition you need right now, so you're smaller than your sister, but Mommy and the Drs are watching over you vrey closely and we'll make sure we continue to take good care of you.

I can't wait to hold you in my arms.


Saturday, September 6, 2014

Proud moments

Dear Boston,

Today you and I shared a moment that I hope I never ever forget.  You're 3 years old (almost 4) and for the last few months you've been especially interested in learning how to read.  We've started Zoo-phonics and you're really getting down all the letter sounds.  Today during quiet time you were writing/drawing on your white board, then we started spelling out words together and sounding them out.

For the first time ever, you read your first word phonetically all by yourself!  The word was,

It was so fun to hear you say, "Mmm ahh  Mmm" and then say it faster and then realize what you had said.
"Mom!  That says Mom!"  Now I'm so proud of you, but the thing that will stick with me is the moment we shared after.   You were so excited and proud and I felt so excited for you.  We both cracked up laughing and you had a grin stretched from ear to ear.  We laughed for a good few minutes and I kept saying how proud I was.  Then you would get so overwhelmed with joy all you could do was hug me.  So you'd wrap your arms tight around my neck and we'd laugh some more.  As soon as we pulled it together, we called Daddy and shared the big news with him.

I am so glad that I'm not missing out on these moments with you.  I couldn't stop talking with Daddy tonight about how good it felt to share that moment of accomplishment and excitement with you.  I love you so much and you are one of my very favorite people.

I love you,


Thursday, August 14, 2014

Happy 2nd birthday Isaac!

Dearest Isaac,

You turned two today!  Two!  Can you believe it?  I can't.  You woke up to a day filled with surprises and you were the star.  You had no idea what was going on, but you loved every minute of it.  After you opened your presents this morning, Daddy, myself and Bosty stood in a line and sang you happy birthday.  It was the first "Happy birthday song" of the day and you were a little confused and felt a little left out.  You ran to me, slightly upset, had me pick you up and then sang along with us.  We all laughed.  :)  Brother worked very hard to make the day special for you as well and we teamed up to make your day extra special.  Daddy stayed home for breakfast and later on lunch, met us at the Trampoline park to watch you jump for a bit.

You had a wonderful day and I hope you felt as special as you are.  You are a light in our home.  We love you so much more than you could ever know.  You are forever Daddy's little pal, Mommy's chubby baby, and Boston's best friend.  Here are our favorite things about you,

Mine is that you are a cuddle bug.  You need Mommy "loves" and I soak it all up.  This morning at 5 am you crawled in my bed and cuddled right up to me, just like when you were first born. It reminded me that 2 years ago at 6 am, I awoke from bed with contractions strong enough I could no longer sleep.  I calmly got ready for the day and by 9 am Daddy and I arrived at the hospital laughing and talking with excitement.  By noon you were born.  :)  All 7 lbs 14 ounces of you.  I instantly fell in love with your big blue eyes and all that dark hair with the same hair line as Curious George.

Daddy's favorite thing is your fun energy and your sweet kindness.

Bosty's favorite thing is how much you make him laugh.  He thinks you're the funniest, cutest kid around.

Your a fierce little man that goes about life with intensity, but you also can be so gentle and snuggly and calm and focused.  You're a brilliant little boy with an amazing vocabulary and a never ending list of phrases and antics picked up from brother.  I can't wait to see how you continue to live this precious life of yours.

We love you Darling boy!