Friday, December 14, 2012

My boys

Dear Babies of mine,

Something heart breaking happened today.  Too heartbreaking to write about.  It didn't happen to our family personally but me and probably every parent across the country are shedding tears and feeling heart broken over it.  I feel inclined to hold you both so tight and not let go.  Never let you out of my sight and always keep you close to my heart.  But I can't wake either of you up and I'll have to let the both of you go someday...I only hope that day doesn't come sooner than I'm ready for.  So tonight, while you are both still under my roof, under my protection, safe and sound I want to write you a letter and just tell you a few scattered, yet seemingly important things that I want you to know.

You are both such good boys.  Your innocence and goodness just permeates our home and makes me and your Dad better people. 

A loving Heavenly Father created you.

You were both so wanted by your Dad and I before you came here...that hasn't changed.  :)

You'll spend all your lives learning and growing, but it's now, as children that you'll do the most teaching.

The two of you are so loved.

Your parents love each other so much.

You both are incredibly happy little men. 

Boston you are so smart.  Daddy and I are amazed at how quickly you learn new things and you try so hard.  Your confidence is something I admire and aspire to.  It's maybe my favorite thing about you.  You're silly.  That's probably my second favorite.  I love when you tell me to, "Come on Mom" in your big boy voice and I appreciate your pats on the back followed by, "Good job Mom".  I adore you. 
I just simply adore you.

Isaac, I've never known a more content person.  You're so happy just to be.  You teach me how to truly love.  The way you look at me warms my whole soul.  You spent a week with a fever and were only content if you were in my arms or sleeping next to my body.  The moment I walked away, you knew and needed me back.  My body gives you 100% of the nutrients you need to be alive and I just love being needed that way.  You perfectly forgive offenses and have endless love to give, through your cuddles and smiles.  I have so much to learn from you.  I think you just might be an old soul.  Believe it or not I need you just as much as you need me.  I needed to have you when I did and I needed the incredible experience I had in getting you here.  You've given me hope for many more babies to come.  :) 

I love you sweet babies.  In all of eternity this is my one chance to know you as little children.  My one chance to experience your "firsts".  I treasure this time so much and will not wish it away for one second...not even on the sleepless nights.. cause at least they're spent with one of you. 



Friday, December 7, 2012

Mini me

Dear Isaac,

You are such an adorable little fluffy baby.  I never thought I was cute as a baby, but somehow you look a ton like me as a baby, only you are the ultra cute version.  I love your big blue eyes, fluffy thighs and cheeks (on both ends I might add) and wild brown hair. Your personality is just a little slice of heaven.  You are so incredibly sweet and happy and smiley.  It's no wonder Daddy blessed you with a positive attitude, because you have already been displaying that daily.  You're incredibly patient and accommodating and you never have too many smiles to give out.

You're also a bit of a Momma's boy ( I love this).  You love just being near me and close to me.  You're content with whatever we're doing as long as we can be close.  I have yet to experience one moment of frustration with you.  Not one.  You're just so sweet there is no reason every to be frustrated.  You're a quiet crier but have a loud voice.  You love to coo and find your range and talk our ears off when you can get our attention.  You also loooovvee Bonky.  She's your other "girl" besides me.  You've taken many a nap in her arms and she calls you her little pain pill because holding you just makes everything better.  You're such a joy to have in our home.  You make Boston laugh all the time and he makes you laugh too.  You like to laugh with people and one night if I just kept saying "art" over and over you just died laughing.  It made me and Bonky laugh and laugh. 

When brother turned 3 months old he started to smell a bit like bacon from all of his drooling.  You have your own distinct saliva smell and it's Mac n cheese.  :)  Oh my stinky little men.  You also have lots of moments of smelling just like Heaven though.  Like straight out of a bath and there is nothing better than little babies breathe. 

You're almost 4 months old and have recently discovered your toes.  You love playing with them and are learning to use your hands to grab more things, like my hair, toys and your toys.  You're a big fan of your binky, but you might be a thumb sucker because you are always trying to find ways to work those fingers in your mouth.  We haven't had an appointment for you in a little while, but last I checked you weighed about 16 lbs.  Not sure how long you are.  I think about 23 inches maybe? 

We spend so much time snuggling.  I think you're more snuggly than Boss was.  You're quite active like he was (rolling over early and always moving that body) but you also love a good snuggle pressed up tight against me where I can give you endless kisses on your fluffy cheeks. 

Nakey time is happy time in your world.  The minute that diaper comes off you are all smiles.  I don't blame ya.  Your little rolls need some time to air out!  You also seem to love music, maybe you'll be my little singer.  Right now you are talking my ear off as I type and read this letter aloud to you.  You get so excited when I talk to you.  Often times before you cry you try really hard to explain yourself  and use your words.  Like just now you were saying "pick me up Momma" so i'm finishing this letter one handed.  You make me feel like a million bucks the way you stare and smile at me.  The two of us are pretty in love aren't we? So grateful for the endless hours of snuggle time we get, including in the Bjorn.  You don't care if I'm bending over a million times or if you're tipped a little to one side in that thing.  If your snuggled up to me with your hands by your cheeks you're happy as a clam.

I love you,

Love Momma

PS My main song to you seems to be The way you look tonight,  The words are adorable and you love to sing along to it with me..